Category Archives: Life as we know it

AI

AI is quite the buzz word now. I’ve followed the story about the data centers being built all over the place and their insatiable need for electrical power. I’ve seen some of the AI creations, both in news stories and in what people post on FaceBook. While remarkable, I never felt that the result justified the means.

But today I found a use for AI that I hadn’t thought of before. I have noticed in the past few months that Google searches have been returning AI summaries rather than just a list of links as had been the past practice.

At Mom’s yesterday, we looked through the things in a closet in one of the spare bedrooms. There was some interesting old stuff stored in there. I hope to make it a subject of another post.

One of the things we found was not so old. It was a . . .  I don’t know what to call it. It’s a very nice table top display of a flag that was flown over LSU after Zach’s death. I don’t remember how it got to Mom’s. I probably took it down there to see if anyone was interested in taking it. Since no one in the family has space for displaying such things, it went unclaimed.

Now it has resurfaced and I’m pretty sure no one will want it. I left it there to ask people about it on Christmas. We’ll see.

The whole thing got me to thinking about Zach’s legacy at LSU. Besides the flag, I had gotten notification of a logo that was put on the URec Center basketball court about a year after his death. I wrote a short post about it here.

This morning I got curious about whether the logo was still there and what condition it was in. I did some Internet searching and found the web site for LSU URec but could find nothing about Zach. Looking again at the search results, I noticed that there was an Instagram link with a reference to a ‘zwood’’ court at the URec. So I tried searching using that phrase in a real question and followed up with a ‘deeper dive’ into the AI search.

What came back astounded me. Here’s a screenshot of the results:

Here’s a link to the page. I was able to scroll down and followed other related questions that the AI had come up with. The questions were germane and the answers were useful. Remarkable!

Is this worth building data centers all over the place that have insane power requirements? I’d still say no. Zach’s old boss at URec is still there. I may write to her and get an update. No AI can do that.

The turquoise shirt

Readers of this blog should know that I play in a jazz band. It’s a big band, around 20 musicians, at a local community college. We played concerts last night and the night before. About a month ago, the question came up to the band director as to what he wanted us to wear for the concerts.

Typically nowadays it is all black. Black slacks, socks, shoes with a black collared shirt.

We have anew director this semester and he wanted something different. He told us to wear a brightly colored collared shirt. Solid color only, but not black.

I remember thinking at the time that I had something that would do, but when I got back home and looked through the closet, the best I could find was a dark blue shirt. Not bright.

So, Sepi and I talked about it and made plans to go shirt shopping at one of the usual suspect stores: Penney’s, Nordstrom Rack or Macy’s. But meanwhile, she had spotted a 2nd hand store near Mom’s house that she wanted to check out. It turned out that Mom wanted to go there for another reason so we all trooped over there on a Sunday afternoon a couple of weeks ago.

And there, in my size and in perfect condition, was this bright turquoise shirt. It was totally a shirt that I would have bypassed in other situations without a second thought. I’m a brown and green and blue plaid kind of guy.

But it was what I needed so we bought it.

What became funny to me was that several people in the band – old and young – came up to me to tell me how good that shirt looked on me. Sepi, of course, knew it all along.

At the thrift store, there was a lavender shirt that Sepi wanted me to buy. I said no, we only need one bright shirt. Now, we’re going to go by there next week to see if it’s still there. I have bright shirts in my future!

Ten years

I marked ten years yesterday. No one said or otherwise communicated about it to me. It’s only my human obsession with round numbers, really. I don’t have anything profound to contribute. Just a sigh. By one measure it’s a long time. By others, not so much.

Zach’s presence has receded into the background. I still have my ‘Z’ in my medicine cabinet that I look at every day. I’m pretty sure the ‘Z’s that I put up around Davies Hall are still there. Most do not know what they are for, I’m sure. I went looking for some pictures of them. I remember taking them, but now I can’t find them. Grrr . . .

Thinking about ‘what would Zach do’ or wishing for his advice or perspective has pretty much stopped. We are all so different from ten years ago. Guessing what his life arc would have been is futile. Sad, of course, because of all the great potential that was there.

Not to say that I don’t think about it from time to time. I’ve been struggling to find ways to make this blog relevant and I think getting back to Zach might be a way forward. I haven’t looked at his journals for a long time.

In the words of Paul Simon, ‘Preserve your memories; they’re all that’s left you.’

Telegraph Hill

When we first moved to our condo in the shadow of Telegraph Hill, I was of course aware of Coit Tower at the top of it. One of the things we did pretty early on was to walk up there via the famous Filbert Steps. The hill is pretty steep on the east side! I don’t know how many steps, but it’s a few hundred, I’m sure. And the hill is way too steep for any kind of street.

I wasn’t until a couple of months ago that we got a coffee table book detailing the history of our neighborhood, usually called the North Waterfront.

 

I knew that much of the San Francisco waterfront is land fill since the Gold Rush but I really hadn’t thought much about where the land fill came from. In the book is a drawing showing what was then called ‘Signal Hill’ coming right down to the beach along San Francisco Bay.

Reading further into the book, I discovered that Signal Hill was considered a prime source for landfill. In fact, for 20 years or so there was an actual quarry right along the east side of the hill.

Nowadays, you can see the outline of the original hill if you look at it from out on the Embarcadero. Our condo is in the white building on the right mid distance. The Filbert steps are just out of the picture on the left.

Walking up Chestnut Street, you can find a spot right next to the cliff that is the east side of Telegraph Hill now. Here are some views of that spot.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

These views are looking south, southwest and west. Pretty steep cliff!

When we were looking for condos in the neighborhood, we looked at an apartment in the building just at the edge of the picture on the left. Looking out the living room window, there was a perfect close up view of that cliff. No thanks!

Where we live now doesn’t have a great view like we had in Brisbane. We are only on the second floor so we hear a lot of street noise but the windows are south facing and the sun comes in filtered by the trees most of the year. We like it a lot!

 

San Francisco streets

Since moving into the City, I’ve made it a habit to rehearse the order of the names of the streets as I go places. Despite them being literally next door, I still get Greenwich and Filbert mixed up. They both have stairs up Telegraph Hill. Filbert is more famous, probably because it is a bit nicer. Greenwich is closer to our place on Lombard.

After Filbert, heading into (what we still call) the Financial District, there is Union, Green, Vallejo and Broadway.

Today Sepi and I walked to our dentist, who is at 450 Sutter. Once on the downtown grid, every corner can be a choice as the distances all come out the same. Some blocks go up hills, though, so generally we go down Sansome for a while to get around the shoulder of Telegraph Hill. Whether the day is warm or cool often determines which side of the street we walk on. Today, before the low clouds burned off, we turned up Washington to skirt (what is still called) the Transamerica Building then going down Montgomery to Sacramento then Grant then Sutter.

What is really interesting to me now are the alleys.

Maiden Lane by Union Square is (or was) famous. Hotaling Place is lesser known but has a cool 1906 story. Leidesdorff Street has a nice mural.

Today, walking towards home on Grant, we saw an alley with no sign. Down at the end was a sign for a restaurant: The Irish Bank. Around the corner, I spied the other end of the alley – it takes a turn at the restaurant – which was named Mark Lane. Is it Mark Lane all the way through? No, according to Google Maps, the other part is Harlan Place. We asked at the restaurant but they didn’t know.

Another block farther on, we walked down Belden Place, which sported at least a half dozen restaurants in its single block. Pretty busy, too, at lunch hour. I’ve never even heard of Belden Place before today.

Many of the streets we walked on today I have driven on but we really enjoy going slow and looking at everything: the buildings entrances and decorations, the store windows, the people. I got a book once from the library that talked about all the San Francisco street names and how they got that way but it works better for me to do it organically. If I stand in a place and know the history, I can remember it better. It’s not as much fun to just jam facts into my brain to be spewed forth later.

Our (try to be) daily walks are often out on the Embarcadero. Certain places on the Embarcadero have brass plaques in the sidewalk with stories about the intersecting streets.

Francisco, Chestnut, Lombard, Greenwich, Filbert, Union . . .

Going the other way: Battery, Sansome, Montgomery, Kearney, Grant, Stockton, Powell, Mason, Taylor . . .

I’ve got to keep at it!

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Addendum: We went out onto the Embarcadero today and I got a picture of one of the plaques I was talking about. It was for Green Street. There are actually six plaques set into the sidewalk. The top two show the name of the street and the direction to it from where we are standing.

The middle two show an image of Mr Green and tell Mr Green’s story. It basically says Mr Green was actually someone else with another name.

At the bottom is a final word. The seagull shit is such a San Francisco touch!

Tim K

I’m never quite sure about using people’s names on this blog. Generally I do it like this.

I got the news today that Tim K died last week. Tim was Tom’s younger brother and in my high school class. In other words, the same age as me.

Thinking back, Tim was really my entree to Tom. Tom, who was so important to me in my early rock band days. Tim and I were in some of the same classes together our Senior year of high school. Perhaps the most important to me was the Period 0 PE class. Because we had a full load of academic classes, we were allowed to take PE – because god forbid you don’t get PE – before the regular classes started. During PE basketball games we could talk to each other and became friends.

Tom was two years older and already off to college by this time but I had been envious of him and his band ‘Native Son’ from a couple of years before. When I wanted to put together a band for a church event, Tom graciously agreed to participate. Without knowing Tim I would have been too scared to talk to him.

The church band became April, which was a real thing for a couple of years. It was real enough for me to quit UCSC the next year because of it.

During those two or three years after high school, Tim and I palled around quite a bit. He often came along when my band was playing. We experimented with our bodies’ tolerance for alcohol. Really gross stuff in hindsight: Mickey’s Big Mouth, Schlitz Malt Liquor, Sloe Gin fizzes, Ouzo.

I don’t remember any incident that split us. Eventually, we just went our separate ways. Tim became an elementary school teacher in Fresno and while my relationship with Tom deepened, it did not carry over to staying in touch with Tim.

Tim never married nor had any long term relationships, as far as I know. Tom is going to Fresno to go through his apartment. I can’t help but think of the surprise we got when we went through Zach’s papers.

I always felt that Tim had so much going for him in high school. He was so gregarious then, it was always a surprise that he was so guarded about his life later. Teaching is an honorable profession but I thought he could have done a lot more. I suppose you could say the same about me. I never heard that alcohol played any part of him being so reticent. I always felt that he got over it as I did.

There is a backlog for the coroner’s autopsy. Maybe we’ll know more next week. In the meanwhile, Rest In Peace Tim. We had some good times together. I learned a lot from you. You deserved better than to die alone.

Getting older

What is it like getting older? How about this?

I was talking to a medical person this morning about a procedure that I had had. I could remember the procedure perfectly. I thought it was maybe about ten years ago. Then I started running the numbers.

It was before I moved to Pacifica in 2010. In fact, it was right around the time I moved to Suisun. Hmmm, 2007? How many years ago was that? Almost 20! Sheesh!

For some reason, things that happened longer ago, like when I worked at the Opera, or moved to Grass Valley, are easier to rationalize in memory. 30 years ago? 40 years ago? Whatever. When something that at first blush seems recent and it turns out to be 20 years ago . . . Man, I’m old!

some Zach thoughts

It’s not every day, or even every week. Sometimes a month may go by without thinking of Zach. But when it comes, it comes hard.

The three friends, laughing, then the yells of warning, then the sudden screen of skidding tires, the thump, followed by more yelling. ‘You’re not going to pin this on me, man!’ The sirens and the lights. And the realization that their friend was gone.

This reimagining comes without warning, at odd times. Most often in the wee hours but sometimes, like today, in the bright afternoon.

All I can do is grieve some more. And sometimes write about it.

There are other times, when I think of Zach and the insights he might have. Some profound and some just funny. That’s when ‘I miss you’ really has meaning.

hairstyle

I got a haircut from Sepi’s niece last August. I don’t remember that it was particularly short but now it’s 3 months later and I don’t feel the need for a new haircut. Usually, two months is about right.

For some reason, I’ve started combing my hair straight back rather than to the side as I’ve been doing it since I was a child. In my mind, it’s the look of my Uncle Pat. Here’s a picture of him:

This picture was taken in 1979. Pat was in his 50s then. Now I’m 70 plus and every time I comb my hair back I think of Pat.

Various hair people in recent years have encouraged me to use ‘product’ to hold my hair in a certain place. I’ve tried it but it doesn’t feel right. I’m a natural guy! I don’t know if Pat was using such stuff. Knowing him, I’m guessing not. Anyway, my hair starts falling into my face after it dries out.

Here’s my look from before the last haircut:

The good looking gentleman in the white jacket is Sasha. You can read about this photo here.